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[heartofthestar]

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[purrsonality]

Sure?

[ she's a bit nonplussed. ]

It's not a big deal.

[heartofthestar]

The effort it takes to offer it has no relation to the value I find it to have.

[purrsonality]

It doesn't have that much value, does it?

[heartofthestar]

[Venat nods, simple and straightforward.]

It does to me. I would wager most strongly that others feel the same way.

[purrsonality]

. . . Because of me?

[heartofthestar]

Most certainly. You are the only you there is.

[purrsonality]

. . . I only break in though.

It's not the same thing.

[heartofthestar]

And has anyone ever told you, 'you are breaking in, leave'?

I imagine Akechi might have once or twice, but that is how he pretends to be, after all.

[purrsonality]

. . . He's never said that.

Sometimes, he keeps pillows and quilts out for me.

[heartofthestar]

It sounds to me as if, rather than breaking in, you are being welcomed here unreservedly.

[purrsonality]

. . . Yeah.

This is mine too.

[heartofthestar]

Then I think we can safely say you have become part of the family.

[Said with a certain amount of bemusement, because no addition to it surprises her more greatly than herself.]

[purrsonality]

[ her ears droop. ]

Is that really possible for someone like me?

[heartofthestar]

If we choose it, and you choose it, that is all there is to it. Family may very readily be those who you choose to be your family, and in such a circumstance, there is no other criterion for it.

[purrsonality]

Family is more than choice.

[ at least. in her limited experience. people prioritize blood. connection. she's seen this. ]

[heartofthestar]

Is it? If a brother and sister turn out to not be related at all, do they suddenly become strangers to each other? If a couple raises a child that is not theirs by birth, are they not parents?

[purrsonality]

Some people will see it that way. Doesn't matter how long you raised someone, it's conditional.

It can go away.

[heartofthestar]

All the more reason, then, that blood and such binds mean less than choice. The challenge, then, is to trust in the face of fear, is it not?

[purrsonality]

Do you do that?

Trust in the face of fear?

[heartofthestar]

I have, but it must be admitted, I have ever had little to fear.

[purrsonality]

Why is it little?

[heartofthestar]

A fair question. In this time and place, I think the answer is simply that I am at peace with what has happened, and what will happen. Every moment I live is one I did not expect to have, and all the happiness and delight I feel is more than I ever anticipated. Thus, even though I know it will end someday, I need not fear that time, for it ending only means I had it to begin with.

[purrsonality]

Okay, but it sounds like you're living like it's gonna end.

And yeah, everything does.

But that's no way to live?

[heartofthestar]

Hmm. I think if I were living as if it were going to end, I'd not bother doing any of the things I do -- 'twould be pointless, after all. Instead, I accept the end will come, without hesitating to do anything I wish for fear of that end. That is how I see it, in any case.

[purrsonality]

[ hm. ]

So you're not thinking that?