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Hear.
Feel.
Think.
Call.
Message.

Date: 2024-06-19 11:38 pm (UTC)
placation: rosebursts (they were i love you please & thank you)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ It has never been lost on Maruki, what he first learned of Venat, what started them down this path of their relationship: That she had at last been ready to relinquish her long work and rest, and found herself here instead.

The words settle between them with the gravity the deserve: Until I knew they would find their way. What a profoundly beautiful and painful thing, to finally see that come to fruition, to know that things are set to continue on without you, and to accept the end.

He's watching her, so of course he sees her catch the tear. And there's no part of him that thinks it's a tear of sadness. That wouldn't be congruent with her story. The emotion behind it is likely vast and deep in all its layers and complications.

Venat got the measure of him easily when she saw that he hadn't ever really dealt with the grief of his own story.

If he understands her a fraction as well, then he thinks he understands why that tear might have threatened to fall.

Wordlessly, Maruki turns and folds her into his arms.

He's good at this. Always has been. One of his very few true skills, despite how complimentary Venat is of him. He hooks an arm around her mid-back, squeezing in tight despite the voluminous robes to draw her close, then lays the other higher up, sliding his arm beneath hers. A hand cradling against the back of her head, exceedingly gentle, just enough of a touch to tuck her head into his shoulder.

His voice is quiet, and tender, and absolutely unyielding in how genuinely he means this.
]

Your journey was a long one. You can let yourself feel the weight of that... and of its ending. Feeling it's the only way to eventually release it.

[ A lesson he needs to take to heart too. He will, for once, eventually. For now, he only hugs Venat close. ]

Date: 2024-06-23 08:21 am (UTC)
placation: rosebursts (we were made to love)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ It cannot be overstated that the awkwardness is part of the charm.

Maruki laughs along with her – it really is an absurd situation in so many ways, especially when it flies in the face of all that you know about the way the cosmos works, especially when that knowledge is as intimate as it is for Venat.

And then, in the silence that follows, a thoughtful hum.
]

It's a strange thing, isn't it? To get what you've hoped and worked so hard for. Everything works out, and that should wrap it up neatly and tie it off with a nice bow, but so often it only brings up more feelings, more questions.

[ And as for failing to dissipate–

He had asked her, back in that dreamtime Shujin office, if a part of her would have wished to continue living. She was the first person he met who arrived in Somnius after what should have been certain death, or something like it – he's had time to refine that theory since.

Maruki hugs her tighter for a brief moment before relaxing his grasp enough for them to speak comfortably, able to look at one another without being in quite such close quarters, but still loosely held in his arms.

There's a cool breeze up atop the cliff. Sure.
]

This might be a gauche question... Certainly, it seems like something that the people here aren't eager to talk about, so you're welcome to deny me an answer. But what was it that you supposedly wished before gaining consciousness here?

Date: 2024-06-29 06:37 am (UTC)
placation: placation (art: frkdlsch_draws) - dns (it's a sign that someone loves me)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ Huh. Someone not remembering their wish...

It makes sense, he supposes, especially in Venat's position. He has to wonder if any of the other dreamers who died in their realities would run into the same problem. Asking outright would be tactless, out of the question – and it might tip his hand a bit too much.

There is no part of Maruki that thinks the "wishes" they made will be granted. At best, they're carrots on sticks. At worst, they're part of the manipulative mechanisms that draw people in and keep them captive. It's those mechanisms that he wants to uncover and understand. There are other ways. Learning more about the wishes is just one of them.

But those thoughts that bend more toward the conspiratorial are far from his mind at the moment, focused solely as he is on Venat. He hums thoughtfully.
]

Maybe you did. Maybe... You were ready for that particular life to end, but not life in general.

[ A half-shrug, a somewhat sheepish smile. ]

I don't know, it makes sense to me. After everything you did, for as long as you did it, you'd be well within your rights to want a chance not only to rest but to simply... be yourself.

[ The embrace has relaxed enough that when he drops one arm away to run a self-conscious hand through his hair instead, he now has the other loosely wrapped around her back as he turns out a bit to look out over the view of Somnius again, the stars overhead. ]

Whether you wished for the chance or not, I'm glad that it was given to you either way. You deserve to just be Venat, and I'm happy to have gotten the chance to meet you as her.

Date: 2024-07-02 01:08 am (UTC)
placation: rosebursts (lay it all down)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ Maruki accepts her leaning into him gladly, tightens his arm a bit around her back and finds himself laughing along with her. It's easy, with Venat. He can't remember the last person it was so easy to find such uncomplicated joy with.

Or– he can.

It's been a very long time.
]

I promise there's nothing about this that resembles counseling! I mean every word I say as your friend.

[ You are a marvel, stated so emphatically, like it's a fixed point in the cosmos that Venat knows as well as any other. There's no room left over for him to question or doubt it. The compliment doesn't ping off in deflection; it simply sinks into the very matter of his heart.

They could go back and forth all night – if he's a marvel, then Venat is a wonder, on and on.

Some day. There's no shortage of time for their mutual appreciation circle to run rampant.

For now, Maruki's focused on this dichotomy that Venat is rediscovering within herself. He grins at her and then jerks his head away, back from the cliff's edge they stand so near, toward the clearing of the plateau.
]

Shall we set up our camp? And once we're comfortable, maybe I can ask you to tell me another story you can recall about a time when you were just Venat.

Date: 2024-07-03 09:35 am (UTC)
placation: placation (art: pixiv 11317886) - dns (but we sing it anyway)
From: [personal profile] placation
Wh– no way!

[ Maruki looks between the suddenly appeared hammock and Venat, more stunned than he has any right to be. ]

No, wait, I meant– yes, hammocks are great, but–

[ When even was the last time he laid in a hammock?

Matters not, because the real pertinent question finally makes its way out:
]

Is there no limit to what you can create??

Date: 2024-07-03 10:10 pm (UTC)
placation: placation (art: pixiv 11317886) - dns (it's an old tale)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ It makes sense – as much sense as it can make to a man who has never known or possessed that kind of power. His own ability to create is simultaneously more wide-reaching, less demanding, and still almost wholly unknown to him. Perhaps he would have done a better job if he had to know the level and depth of detail intimately enough to create concepts.

Still– he does understand. And it's fascinating beyond his wildest dreams. Especially a vault of concepts able to be tweaked and twisted and improved, a testing ground for new variations of life. The scientist in him is deeply appreciative of the concept (ha ha) alone, and the reality bending weirdo in him wishes he could have experienced it too.

But it's that last bit that brings this around to what he already knows.
]

I see...

[ Maruki hangs his satchel up on a tree branch before moving to sit at the edge of the webbed hammock, gently testing its stability. ]

Like summoning a primal, for example?

Date: 2024-07-05 08:59 am (UTC)
placation: placation (art: frkdlsch_draws) - dns (it's a sign that someone loves me)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ Maruki still remembers everything she told him of that story. He's thought about it often, rolled it around in his head on nights where sleep is hard-won for his mind despite his body's exhaustion. It weighs on Venat, clearly– he straightens up as she shakes her head, such is the force of her trying to dispel the notion from their conversation. ]

I understand. We don't need to go down that road now, but you know I'll always listen in the future.

[ And then he offers her a warm smile before flopping back into the hammock with a little oof. ]

If there's anything you never do, Venat, it's fail to mention how wonderful anything was. I can tell that you have a deep appreciation for the society you came from, even with all that happened.

Date: 2024-07-07 10:44 am (UTC)
placation: rosebursts (lay it all down)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ And there she goes, just proving his point. Maruki shakes his head, not in disagreement but in a fond sort of disbelief. Venat's love of people truly does transcend all else, even her own vast and varied hardships. She's an inspiration, really, for the kind of person Maruki wants to be.

He laces his hands together and folds them behind his head, grinning up at her.
]

Very! You have a knack for creation– though I guess that's not surprising, hah.

[ It's extraordinarily peaceful – looking up through the tall trees at the night sky, surrounded by the bioluminescent plant life, wonderfully silent. ]

I was just trying to get away from my housemate's destructive tendencies, but this is so nice, I might have to come camp here more often.

Date: 2024-07-10 06:37 am (UTC)
placation: placation (art: nono_ppppp) - dns (i'm not alone; i'll never be)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ Maruki sits back up in the hammock to watch her, half fond at how much she's clearly enjoying it, half feeling more than a bit useless. He plants one foot against the ground and uses it to idly rock the hammock back and forth as he chatters. ]

I think I only ever went camping... once or twice? Both had to have been school trips, so I was fairly young. It's not something that my family would have done for fun, and I can't say I ever sought it out as a recreational activity as an adult... Though I did enjoy traveling to visit various hot springs. That's not the same at all, but it felt calm like this does.

[ And then he hops off, draws closer to the fire, eyes shifting from the flames to the luminescence of the flora back along the path they climbed, then to Venat. No, this moment won't ever come again. ]

Thank you for doing this.
placation: placation (art: anarogiizu) - dns (i see all the ones i went for)
From: [personal profile] placation
[ It's an interesting point, and a valid one. Maruki finally opens up his satchel to produce the blanket he'd brought and shakes it out to lay on the ground near the fire as he speaks. ]

You're not wrong, but at the same time, it's strange how quickly we can settle into a place and make it feel more familiar. Somnius is nothing like Tokyo, and the castle I live in is nothing like my cramped little apartment–

[ Satchel closed up again, he hangs it from one of the nearby tree branches and grins at her. ]

But it's a little like home already. Ah, but I suppose that's a feeling a homebody like me would cling to – an adventurer like you who won't even settle down in a home, not so much.

[ And a wink, to boot. He's teasing. For now. GIRL YOU'RE GONNA NEED A HOUSE!!

Then he settles down onto the blanket and pats the spot next to him.
]

Come on. We can tell a few more stories to pass the time.

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